Is it at all possible to just opt out of growing up? Sometimes this is the thought I have when the adult life becomes oh so overwhelming and the idea of being responsible for something becomes frightening.
Why does society make us conform to certain roles when we reach a certain age? We are then expected to get married, get a Job, build a career, start a family. It is like a routine of life in a way and I think it can get boring sometimes. There are people reading this who may think you don’t have to follow the pattern but the thing is part of me doesn’t mind it and the part that does has a million hurdles to overcome.
All I wanna do on this Monday afternoon is to lie down on a beach somewhere secluded and enjoy a good book and a tall glass of some exotic Mocktail but alas I am sat at my office at work wondering when I will be able to earn enough to go on said adventures.
You get reality shocks when you visit embassies and they inform you that you cannot use your parents accounts to apply for visa or when you fill out a form and have to learn about taxes and so on. Is this it now, am I an adult now, do I have to venture into the unknown without my training wheels. It is scary and in a weird uncomfortably twisted way, it is exciting too.
Because on the other side of all of this fear and anxiety lies the excitement that is the unknown. The prospects of a lifetime with someone you love [I still believe that you are out there somewhere], the idea of buying your own “big investment” with hard-earned money and the possibility of a certain kind of freedom that is yet to be experienced. I am trying to be more of an optimist these days and so with every sad and negative thought or idea that pops into my head, I try to balance it with the same amount of positive vibe.
But then again there are still days when you wake up and question this notion of “growing up” and being reponsible. We can’t always have it both ways I suppose, there should be a certain level of commitment and sacrifice I guess to get a life we want. As for me that life involves a lot of travelling, a lot of adventure and the possibility of visiting remote places to offer assistance and share love and joy.
But for now, I will continuing sitting at my desk and enjoying the rest of my lunch, daydreaming and counting my pennies to the bank!
What is your Monday looking like?